prft ... ok, I was contemplating what to do in my last post! My decission is ... to leave things as they are! I hate not doing anything but on the other hand I simply feel that I've done all I can for now. As it was pointed out to me by someone close .... you can't force someone to accept help in any way, shape or form if they don't want it from you. This I knew, but I guess it's human nature not to take your own advice until it comes from someone else.

Have had a second call from someone with a withdrawn number too tonight!! Had one a few days ago ... so if it's anyone reading this then I apologise for hanging up on you. When I get someone calling my mobile and there's no number on there then I don't answer it. It has got me wondering though who it could be ... and my initial thought it that it's a crank call of somesort. Oh well, if they want me they'll try again.

It's so humid tonight .... VERY close! I'm kinda hoping for a nice storm to try and cool the air down a little. Anything to get me some sleep tonight. I think I got about 4 hours last night, maybe a little more, but it was sleep on and off. Probably why my head has been like mush for most of the day too.

Have also decided on DEFINATELY heading to Leeds on Saturday. Getting info together for October is as good a plan as any on keeping my mind occupied. I need to do it otherwise I'm gonna go completely mad.